Dull Ending

It was a very dull day. Dull because I did not do anything worth. Dull because I spent most of my day sitting on the couch and doing useless stuff (except for the Spanish assignment). Dull because of the heat and throbbing headache which made it worse (but thankfully subsided because of the cool of a/c). And dull because even now I am watching TV (actually just looking at it from time to time), a one hour program about extreme water-parks (which is supposed to be interesting but for some reasons, isn't, right now). Looking forward to a (hopefully) better day tomorrow.

"F.R.I.E.N.D.S" 1

It was the start of my middle school days when I started to understand what "Friend" means. And the person who made me realize the importance of having a friend became an eternal part of my life.

I had changed the school that year. From a co-ed to all girls school. Before that most of my "gang" were boys. Almost all of them. So, suddenly in std 6th, I was surrounded with girls. The same year, another girl transferred to my "new" class, another "new" admission. And I wonder if this similarity became the ground of our bond. We were in the same class only for one academic year and then she moved to another city. But those few months were the best of my school days. "Prem" as I called her (interesting part of our story), MUDITA is a true "joy", (as her name suggests), for everyone around. A dreamer and an achiever. I don't remember if she came up with this or who did, but Mudita "The Great" suits her aptly. I have know her as a brave and determined girl, which, I believe is the key to her success. Her modesty adds to her kind and loving personality. An amazingly talented girl, very effective with words. Dimensions of her writing, more on poetic side, still amazes me. Gifted with the combination of artistic and technical mind (and beauty, of course), the girl is here to make a difference. And very soon we would be witnessing it. Like she says "aaj tumne jaana hai, kal duniya bhi jaanegi" (Excuse me sweetie, if I mixed up the words).

I cherish the lunch breaks, and "class prefect" sessions with her. Those funny bollywood stories and gossips. Chalk fights and some minor disagreements. Yes, and in that small time, we actually managed to have a "silence" fight for a couple of months. God! we were idiots. And was it the same year with those thefts in "only" our "classroom"?? The memorable "Choral Dam" picnic. Oh! what days!!

Despite all the physical distances and time, I knew that she was there if I needed her and will always be there. I will treasure her till the end and beyond. And consider myself the luckiest to have her in my life. Thank you so much, love. Wish you all the happiness and success in the world. Amen!!

"F.R.I.E.N.D.S"

I having been thinking of writing a post about all my friends who came through for me in times of need. I am one of the few lucky people to have the greatest friends. And then I realized I could not possibly mention them all in a single post. So, I would introduce them in a series of posts, "F.R.I.E.N.D.S", telling you about them and how they influenced my life.

This is for all you FRIENDS. :)

"So no one told you, life was going to be this way.

Your job's a joke, you're broke, you're love life's DOA.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear,

Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.

But, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.

I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.

I'll be there for you, cause you're there for me too."

Waiting!!

I like to be alone, but I don't want to be. I want to talk but no one is around to listen. My thoughts echo and then get lost in the emptiness. Screams choked up with fear. Fear of losing myself. Silence around is frightening. Light is fading and the darkness creeping in. The stillness is absorbing the last hope out of me. The river of depression pressing me down, harder every moment.

And then I feel the dawn and I wish I could survive until then.

"Unusual" is good, often.

Today, I actually enjoyed The Shopping Therapy. Normally I don't like shopping. In fact, I hate going shopping. (Well, I do like new stuffs and clothes, and everything else, don't get me wrong. Its just, hanging at shops/malls for long irritates me. Lucky him. ;)) Too much variety and choice make me overwhelmed and then most of the time I end up getting out of the shop empty-ended. Mostly I buy stuff which catches my eye almost instantly. Not a lot of thought I put in it. But today, I actually tried to figure how I would look in the dress, (which I was considering), took the trial and then got it. In fact, I went to the fitting room a couple of times, which is very unusual for me. And then got some pretty (and) good summer clothes. Thanks Ritesh for letting me buy whatever I wanted and hanging in there for me while I shopped like girls. :D

"Some" Day!!

Cold breezy morning at the library's outdoor cafe with Enrique Iglesias and Adolf Hitler, not a very usual combination. But everything about this morning made it one of the best in a long time. Sitting there alone, feeling the cool in the atmosphere, I could smell the air. The water in the air. I was enjoying the ocasional shivers due to chilly wind. For some reasons I felt butterflies of joy in the stomach. Watching all those kids playing around and waiting for their story time reminded me of my childhood. People enjoying coffee and discussing politics and local town gossips. I did read a few chapters of Mein Kampf, but honestly - my mind was not into it. (And then Hitler turned out to be a difficult author to understand). I missed taking Twilight with me. After coming home, I found myself singing out loud, to myself, after a very long time. And it really felt good; more than good; ecstatic. Then watched "Sweet Home Alabama", a feel good movie, I always like. And this is just the afternoon. I am looking forward to what is in store for the evening with still blissful weather and cheerful mood.

India works!!

Finally I got to see Delhi 6, the so called documentary. And I must say, unlike most of my friends and family, I liked the movie quite a bit. How it shows Delhi, is beautiful, true and sadly bitter (towards the end).

When in the middle of Ramleela "Delhi 6 ki MLA tashreef laati hai" - hilarious. And I loved the sequence with cow giving birth in the middle of the road and "sick" dadima gets well. Just loved the part where the ladies of the family have that brick removed from the wall to talk to each other without their husbands knowing. Movie showed the commercialization of media and the crap of news we have now on "24 hour NEWS Channel". Well, that sure was entertaining in the film with the "kala bandar" story. And of course, the climax was good, but there, I felt it could be better with a strong script.

The "most catchy" part of the movie for me was "Yahan roti nahi hai, isliye pyar se guzara karte hain. Chote ghar hain, isliye dil bada hone ka dawa karte hain. Nal paani kam deta hai, bansuri jayda sunata hai." "Kaise door rahen, ye sab apna hai. Acchaiyan hain toh apni hai, kamiyan hain toh apni hai. India works. The people make it work. Wahan (America) khidki kholo toh hawa videshi hai".

This whole part is so touching. It is probably because I am here in America. And I miss my home. Yes, I do miss my home. I miss INDIA.

Kafila Saath aur Safar Tanha!!

I received this mail from a very close friend this morning which actually brought tears to my eyes. Most of us would find the mail very related to our lives. 

Main aur meri Tanhayi

Here i am sitting in my office @ night... 

Thinking hard about life 

How it changed from a maverick collage life to strict professional life.

How tiny pocket money changed to huge monthly paychecks 

but then why it gives less happiness..

How a few local denim jeans changed to new branded wardrobe 

but then why there are less people to use them..

How a single plate of samosa changed to a full Pizza or burger 

But then why there is less hunger..

Here i am sitting in my office @ night... 

Thinking hard about life 

How it changed...

How a bike always in reserve changed to bike always on 

but then why there are less places to go on..

How a small coffee shop changed to cafe coffee day 

but then why its feels like shop is far away..

How a limited prepaid card changed to postpaid package 

but then why there are less calls & more messages..

How a general class journey changed to Flight journey 

But then why there are less vacations for enjoyment..

How a old assembled desktop changed to new branded laptop 

but then why there is less time to put it on..

How a small bunch of friends changed to office mate

But then why we always feel lonely n miss those college friends..

Here i am sitting in my office @ night... 

Thinking hard about life

How it changed..... How it changed....